Colour your mind, charm your world

Mother, you have put forth the most adorable creature and all eyes became moist and teary in affection. They watched you cuddle your child in Thanksgiving oblivious of your struggles and the struggles yet to come.  The nights came with deep cries from a tiny creature whom you couldn't ignore. You nursed him in weariness and deep discomfort. You took to your knees and in front of your baby you cried in silence. They didn't see your weakness. They thought motherhood was normal but I know it's not. I know about the mood swings buried under your zeal to pretend that everything is fine. Those days when you wake up from a thirty minute sleep feeling worthless and out of place.  I know about the trips to the toilet to cry under the sound of your shower. Breathing in and out furiously and trying to keep calm. I know how hard it was for you to walk out with a smile amidst a red swollen face. Bloated eyes tired since the day you pushed your baby into the world. I know about your

Eve, with those feeble hands, intertwined with grief unending. You have been pushed to the wall and your guts grew in the process. Eve, you watched him go to and fro, and those nights seemed unending as your pillow drank your tears till dawn. You watched him walk in with a deep look of indifference, smelling like all the flavours of women on Earth. On every other day, those perfumes would have smelt beautiful but certainly not today and not on your husband's body! You looked deep at him and the Jezebel in you started growing bigger, your days became plot trainings. Your bones became stronger and you mustered a permanent smite on your face. Your eyes burned with fire but he never noticed. Adam, oblivious of these changes, never knew you were becoming his regret in life. He never knew you were capable, he brought you to crossroads and left you without options. Adam grew the Jezebel in you and you walked right into her bosom. On the day of your death, Adam, you weren't looking