Colour your mind, charm your world

 When you got here, the doors were locked. You looked through the window and when I saw you, I shrugged feigning Oblivion. You stood there for what seemed like forever but then again I wasn't ready to open up. You knocked and Kept knocking on the door till your hands were sore. You didn't stop. I saw undying love in your eyes and I wondered at your zeal. I let go of all insecurities and swung the doors open. Holding on to your hands, I wept greatly. I was broken from prison and had just been let loose. I didn't know this man. But peace dwelt in his eyes. I was grieving and he grieved with me. Nothing mattered anymore, this was a reality that sweetened my spirit. I rested greatly in his mysteries. I became light. However, he walked in and I saw a slight frown after looking around. The house was covered in cobwebs, the curtains that should have been White were all brown with dust. The walls were cracked up all over. It was all broken, every single thing in my house. He stared

  I was born on black sand Of a people whose grief know no bounds Groomed with stringent measures And made to rely on hope so ethereal Life was rigid like the god of oghene I upheld rules as numerous as sand  All in a bid to avoid the wrath of the gods With permanent smite hidden in my heart They were swift at the table of sacrifice Eager to slit the throat of a Young virgin To appease a god whose desire Is to keep taking till our souls are given I looked deep into the great portrait Moping around in search of love Perhaps an atom of humanity All I saw was ruthlessness I raised my hands to the skies in frustration Seeking for a god whose burden was lighter Tears flowed like blood from ogbete shrine I tarried in Oblivion till dusk Out of thunder, a voice persists From the skies came consolation Piercing deep into my heart Leaving a permanent scar that I called encounter "I have loved you with a love that is divine Even before you knew love I do not need you, Somehow I want you I am

 From the basket of choices I chose mara in Oblivion I came broken, and without will Even my body gave way in contempt I watched life evolve from a dark place At night I wallowed in pain And in deep ponder,  I questioned my Chi Why have you given me mara? That my limbs refused to aid me My neck wobbled in pain And my head was too heavy You have graced the others With limbs that praise them tirelessly And without pain, they roam in routine While I tarry in the dark I grew on my back  Bracing each passing day horizontally I became too heavy  Pain grew deeper in the process Finally you decide to let me float To reign in light heavenly body Organ by organ, I gave up I left the world with a smile of relief

 You've broken my walls and shattered my heart. Nothing hurts as much as the moment. The single moment when I watched life sizzle out of your weak body. I have been told that you are a star and that your light can't be quenched but still you left. You made me doubt your Chi. For nine years I looked beyond your illness, beyond the pain and struggle, beyond the agony of watching you groan in pain all through the night only for you to fall asleep in daytime. I had to drug you at the right time so we would both shut our eyes at night. I hoped greatly that you would overcome and become that star they've always talked about. But your body gave way and I watched you break organ by organ until your heart pumped blood for the very last time. I loved you and I always will. Maybe you were indeed a star, you taught me strength and patience. You held my life for nine years so that I could look at what mattered the most. I nursed you in love and even in death, my love persists.  Live on